August was a terrible month by my standards. Too many sleepless nights and emotional turmoil. Have to say, most of it was self-inflicted. I guess I still have a lot to learn. And the month ended off with the sudden and shocking passing of someone I really looked up to. Although we were never really close, to say he inspired me in ways is an understatement. Hope you're in a better place now, will never forget everything we did and all you did for us. Till we meet again.
Life is so fragile, just like hope. Hope gets me up all the time, but I hate watching it shatter right before me. Being so hopeful all the time gets unhealthy too.
So, nearly half of September is gone, and that marks the end of the semester too. I've no idea how half the AY flew by like it was nothing. Results were expectedly dismal. 2.2 will be better, I promise. No more distractions, excuses, wilfulness. More concentration, discipline.
Started today off on a real bad note. But thrift shopping with half of the comm after meeting made me feel like nothing bad ever happened :') I swear my comm is full of retards HAHA. Got two pairs of shoes, shades, two tops and a tote bag, all for $5 (or less) hehe so happy with my buys!!! I finally understand the magic of retail therapy, especially with the right company!
First ever #ootd my new favourite colour... maybe? I saw the shoes at Cotton On and ran to them, purchased them and put them on immediately. Haha a pretty matching teal with my top, laptop and laptop sleeve! ✌
Remind me again why I'm friends with them? Haha we are such public nuisances...
On a sidenote, I miss TDT & my classmates, haven't been seeing them around much. :-( can't wait for Cambodia OCP trip with them in around two weeks! ☺ plus, a getaway just sounds so apt right now..
During the training @ British Council on Monday!
Impulse (ok not really, wanted to for quite some time) decision to cut my hair last week. Doesn't make much of a difference, but the length snipped off is almost a ruler! And that was the longest I ever grew my hair before the cut. Ahhhh~ I miss my long locks already. Boo hoo.
more picspam:
Shopping with the girlies after Jm & my last paper! ☺♡
We gave Nic an early birthday surprise halfway through meeting haha the whole situation then was hilarious... Some thought the meeting was just a plot to deceive him. LMAO
After which, 10 of us squeezed into Dav's car to go opposite for dinner HAHAHA. It was madness.
Finally met my darling puipui ♥♡ missed her so much!!!! Have fun in bkk my dear! I miss the rest of Cblj so much tooooo. Haven't met them in ages!!!!
@ dav's place:
super super love this picture of us!!!! but there's one burden absent grrr, tagged as the juice in this case. ☺
We all looked so nice that day!
Met up with some old friends that night too, Desi, Dom and Kirst ☺☺☺
Had a nice chill night catching up with them! Missed the o-level period when we stuck together to mug, play cards, House of the Dead and just talk nonsense almost everyday. Heh.
& celebrated my dear hubby tay ♥'s birthday with farmer too. All the best for your prelims and A's my love!!! Haven't seen her in a long long while either!!! In fact the only people I've been seeing on a regular basis other than my family is my comm..... not that I'm complaining but oh well.
Farewell lunch for Loy with Jm~ take care in Shanghai bitch! Will miss your rubbish and annoying presence for the next 5 months :(
when studying gets boring
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IG CAMP!!!!!!!!
Our last event before the year 3s leave for internship! IG camp was great. Time spent with the comm is always enjoyable, so grateful for all of them! Thinking back at all the retarded things we did together, all the fun of laughter... Meh, gonna miss them so much :'( Real-life L4D, 'wrestling', ridiculous photo formations....... blahblahblah I could go on forever
Always camera-ready ;)
Supper at 2am!!!! I'm like laughing to myself now recalling everything that happened before and after this hahahaha
boon, sc and ju during wet games hehehe so cute
rinnieeeeee ♡
Nooooo bran hasn't uploaded the rest of our pictures!!!!! All our maincomm photos as well. Shall post them up here after he does!
Hehehe, our token of love to the year 3s ;)
last photo: #Reizen, never forgotten ♥
Okay so that basically sums up most of the past 3 weeks. Guess I'm kinda enjoying my holidays now, waking up at nearly noon everyday, heading to school but not having to attend any lessons... Hahaha, but I can't help but feel slightly aimless. At least I've my other commitments to keep me occupied, meanwhile, time to spend some quality time with important people like my friends and especially the family. Learning to treasure them so much more now. ☺ Am thankful that I've my dad to send me here & there, my mom to keep my stomach filled with her homemade goodness, and also my bro for just his adorable presence. Of course it's not just these superficial deeds, but it's all the little things that keep us in check.
Just saying, I hate it when I feel insecure. I can't help but let everything you/they are saying get to me....... I hate feeling inferior, being compared. Like I'm just not good enough. Which makes me think again, am I really deserving of everything I have? Oh well.
When will I ever be brave enough?
Good night ☁
