new look

So today I finally went ahead and did something I've been wanting to do for ages (since I left secondary school)! Which is...

TO CUT BANGS.

Hahaha I know it may seem like a stupid and small matter but I've been thinking it over for really long time, and I'm actually quite afraid that it'll look bad. I don't really have a nice high forehead and the last time I had bangs was... in primary school?! Back then my dad used to trim my hair for me (haha) and there was only one default hairstyle (bowlcut). I think the bangs make me look even younger than I already do?!

Before

After 

I've never actually had bangs... (apart from the bowl my dad cut for me when I was younger) and people always tell me that I don't suit the bangs look because my hair is too thin/I don't have a high forehead/my face is too small (?!)/I'll have a hole in my bangs blablabla. But I just went ahead with it and I told the lady to cut long bangs so I can just push them to the side if it's ugly. Plus my hair should grow out before the end of the holidays! Haha but they turned out pretty well I guess??? Oh, I managed to convince Rin to cut her fringe together with me too, so we both have bangs now ^^

Haha ok pardon my narcissism tonight, shall upload a couple more pictures of myself!

Hahaha my sunburnt face after chalet + Sentosa

SO SO SO HAPPY FOR MY FAV #ARSENAL LAST NIGHT, SHOWING SPURS WHO'S BOSS AT HOME!!! This is Emirates ♥♥ So proud to be a gooner!! AR52NAL HEHE although my favourite @aaronjramsey wasn't on the pitch :'( #COYG #GTID

Hmm, I swear I have the fascination with the weirdest things/people?! And it's getting more serious now. Rishon says I'm just overthinking... I think so too. Can't believe I'm so daring normally but when it comes to little things like this I'm such a damn wuss. Please let this be over soon haha I'm quite disturbed by it. 

Get up

Since I've two months (okay technically two weeks before all the camps, work and whatnot pour in again) of holidays, here's a to-do-list this vacation.

I WILL:  

1. READ. At least 1 book every week. I never ever finish reading the books I borrow. Honestly, I haven't read a complete book since I left secondary school. Time to cultivate some sophisicated habits.
2. Learn how to play the dizi- at least a few simple tunes. Don't let it rot on my table!
3. Get back down to writing. It's been really long since I worked my left brain, and I'm overflowing with story ideas at the moment.
4. Do some volunteer work. Poly has kept me so busy that I rarely have time to do any social work! I wanna help out at an old folks' home or children's home again.
5. Start exercising more. I can't even remember when's the last time I ran or actually swam (waddling in the pool is not counted)! If I'm going to continue eating like now I'd better hit the gym.
6. Earn enough $$$ to fill my pathetic bank.
7. Spend more time with my family.
8. Be happy, be optimistic, be contented.

xx

choices

Just read Rui's post about JC and Poly, we used to discuss this quite often when I first came to TP. About all this elitist thinking and whatnot. Hmm I should have gotten over this issue long ago, but I'm starting to feel it again since my friends who took A's are getting back their results next week, and I can't help thinking, "I could be one of them...". It also doesn't help that my mother likes to harp on this?! She's always like "If you studied in JC" "If you weren't so slack then" "You would be in uni in half a year" blah blah. The thing is, I can't refute her because I know she's right. And I know that deep down inside I'm more of a JC person too. I know by choosing to leave for TP, I was just choosing the easy way out. What if I had stayed? I definitely don't have the determination and discipline to study for A's. 

I can say for sure that having experienced both routes, it's definitely easier to do well in poly. The hard part is being consistent. And to move on to uni, you can't just do well. You have to do VERY well (which I haven't gotten to yet). If I maintain this current GPA I can barely scrape through the local university admissions. I'm not that worried about that actually because I still have three more semesters to pull myself up to a safer grade. I just can't help wondering if I made a wrong choice by leaving JC for poly. :-( 

I really dislike this feeling of uncertainty!! I always think about the future and more often than not, I never hit my goals because I'm always so lazy and unmotivated. I'm seriously hoping that I can make it to the local universities, either NUS FASS, NTU'S Comms or SMU's social sciences. If I do well enough to get the SPH scholarship (I'm hoping that I'll get to intern with them in semester 3.1) I hope I can go overseas to major in chinese journalism/broadcast. Well considering I'm pretty much bilingual it shouldn't be too tough right? If not... I'm not sure, I might wanna take marketing, since I've always wanted to do a PR/Corporate Communications kind of job.

Either way, I NEED A DEGREE. I'm actually excited to go to University. And if I wanna make it, a gpa of 3.5 isn't going to be enough. Gonna put in double the effort for my junior year and pull it up to a 3.6 at least.

That's why secondary school life is the best seriously, you never have to worry about all this shit. And when I think back now, O's was such a small case (not that I scored well) compared to all the challenges and decisions we face now. If I could turn back time I would relive my AHS days for sure. No stress, no worries, just epic moments, laughter and more laughter with my best friends :')

Okay enough with all the serious shit. I'm sure I'll make it somehow! I have the potential for greater things seriously. Can't wait to see what the future has in store for me.

Back to reality- aching all over and sunburnt (again) after 03's chalet. It was worth it though, had a blast with them, gonna miss all of them so much sigh. :'( Can't imagine entering a class everyday with no one to connect with. Especially TDT, I'm so thankful for awesome friends/groupmates/classmates like them. I will be so screwed for projects and schoolwork without them! But I'm hoping the four of us won't be split up since we all chose film as our electives.*crosses fingers*

#toodles 

escapade

Sooo, it's officially the holidays for me, and I finally have time to blog!! Two weeks before I get busy with school activities again. Hmm, to be honest, I kind of wished we had exams too, like the other courses. I feel so aimless!!!! Probably because all my other poly friends are studying and I'm not. Meh, it's only the first day of holidays and I feel like going back to school already?!

But yup, CMM year 1s have no main exams (^_^) so I'm a free birdie for two months with the exception of my CDS test which I was supposed to take last Saturday but I didn't. BECAUSE I FRIGGIN' STAYED UP THE WHOLE NIGHT TO STUDY FOR IT, BUT I OVERSLEPT AND MISSED IT. F M L x100 lol //laughs at my own stupidity. I had to go get an MC for it. And that caused me to be late for Refresh :(

Anyway, went for OTC Refresh 1 on Saturday and it was AWESOME!!!!!! I love my empire so muchies #REIZEN hehe. Seriously, I'm so glad that I'm in Reizen and not any other empire. We're definitely much more bonded now. Had an awesome time playing station games esp. with my fav progger Sammie and whatnots and all the epic moments haha. Although we got quite a scolding and some emotional moments afterwards I can safely say that we're not one of the 'clique-ish' or problematic empires and I think we did really well for Refresh compared to OTC! YAY WE TOTALLY HAVE THE MOJO. Dinnered with them opposite school afterwards and had some crazy retarded talk at the badminton court haha I think I was really high at night. Went home and totally crashed on my bed when I got back oh god I swear it felt so goooooood. Have been sleeping at wee hours for the past few nights studying and rushing projects and assignments and shit.

@REIZENMOJOJO ^^

Sunday was spent with my oldfriend clique, our annual gathering at Sentosa! Haha it feels nice to just lie on the sand, talk nonsense and idle around (although I got sunburnt after). We are damn hipster I swear who the heck gambles on Siloso Beach with bets of 10 CENTS hahaha!!! Pigged out, caught up with them and played truth or truth hehe. Found out stuffs about them and also let out some stuff (for the first time) myself! Felt quite good to be honest haha. They were encouraging me (esp farmer) haha but I guess I shouldn't get my hopes up?! I doubt anything is actually gonna happen anyway. Time passes quickly when you're enjoying yourself. Yen is flying back tomorrow sigh can't believe she's been back for three months! Where did the days fly to? :'( Gonna be another ten months before we meet again.

            

♥ 

No kidding, time is really flying by now. It seriously feels like I just entered TP and before I know it, I'm bidding goodbye to my freshman life and becoming a junior in two months. I won't say I'm not excited for Year 2 but I'll definitely miss being a freshie. And I'll miss 03 so much. One of the best classes I've had. Our chalet's tomorrow, gonna have a wild day (and night) with them!

till then!