choices

Just read Rui's post about JC and Poly, we used to discuss this quite often when I first came to TP. About all this elitist thinking and whatnot. Hmm I should have gotten over this issue long ago, but I'm starting to feel it again since my friends who took A's are getting back their results next week, and I can't help thinking, "I could be one of them...". It also doesn't help that my mother likes to harp on this?! She's always like "If you studied in JC" "If you weren't so slack then" "You would be in uni in half a year" blah blah. The thing is, I can't refute her because I know she's right. And I know that deep down inside I'm more of a JC person too. I know by choosing to leave for TP, I was just choosing the easy way out. What if I had stayed? I definitely don't have the determination and discipline to study for A's. 

I can say for sure that having experienced both routes, it's definitely easier to do well in poly. The hard part is being consistent. And to move on to uni, you can't just do well. You have to do VERY well (which I haven't gotten to yet). If I maintain this current GPA I can barely scrape through the local university admissions. I'm not that worried about that actually because I still have three more semesters to pull myself up to a safer grade. I just can't help wondering if I made a wrong choice by leaving JC for poly. :-( 

I really dislike this feeling of uncertainty!! I always think about the future and more often than not, I never hit my goals because I'm always so lazy and unmotivated. I'm seriously hoping that I can make it to the local universities, either NUS FASS, NTU'S Comms or SMU's social sciences. If I do well enough to get the SPH scholarship (I'm hoping that I'll get to intern with them in semester 3.1) I hope I can go overseas to major in chinese journalism/broadcast. Well considering I'm pretty much bilingual it shouldn't be too tough right? If not... I'm not sure, I might wanna take marketing, since I've always wanted to do a PR/Corporate Communications kind of job.

Either way, I NEED A DEGREE. I'm actually excited to go to University. And if I wanna make it, a gpa of 3.5 isn't going to be enough. Gonna put in double the effort for my junior year and pull it up to a 3.6 at least.

That's why secondary school life is the best seriously, you never have to worry about all this shit. And when I think back now, O's was such a small case (not that I scored well) compared to all the challenges and decisions we face now. If I could turn back time I would relive my AHS days for sure. No stress, no worries, just epic moments, laughter and more laughter with my best friends :')

Okay enough with all the serious shit. I'm sure I'll make it somehow! I have the potential for greater things seriously. Can't wait to see what the future has in store for me.

Back to reality- aching all over and sunburnt (again) after 03's chalet. It was worth it though, had a blast with them, gonna miss all of them so much sigh. :'( Can't imagine entering a class everyday with no one to connect with. Especially TDT, I'm so thankful for awesome friends/groupmates/classmates like them. I will be so screwed for projects and schoolwork without them! But I'm hoping the four of us won't be split up since we all chose film as our electives.*crosses fingers*

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